If you are tired of losing battles with an addiction in a fixed fight and want a better life for yourself, current or future spouse and children I strongly encourage you to find a 12 Step Addiction Recovery Program that meets your specific needs. Start attending meetings if you have not already begun. You don't have to do everything alone. Besides you likely have some questions or might get stuck at different points along the way. The sponsorship process is the most beneficial when you are ready to work the steps.